Depression

Hi Blog blog block,

Its been awhile since my last posting. growing up things have become complicated in times. Flashing and scrolling back all the memories which i used to have as such wonderful. Its always great to look back. But we humans cannot look back, we will have to seek for better future to be better us in time and better life.

Life has been rough to me lately. Caught by a good friend leaving, found that my worklife got cheated by soemone i trusted, house instalment and car instalement is in the loop, very headache about all the renovation of my first house, friends have not been understanding, family issue and got life has never been this worst before and i couldnt hold it till i met an accident. I was left nothing that point of life, feels like friends, family, financial all BOOM in one shot. Final crack down. Things was hard.

It was lucky a friend once told me that time can settle all worries. Everything will gonna be okay. i moved on to life on with my life. I applied to Australia working holiday visa to tune my lfie back to whom i really was, in hoping to look for the real me. Someone who used to dream and used to have that passion. I was a hard decsion as i really do love ipoh so much. I have to leave to tune my life back to change my mindset about life. My car was fixed. friendship is rebuilt. Things that  i should have let go, i have let it go. Its time for the song frozen (Let it gooooo, let it gooooo, dont hold you back anymore) it really took me alot of courage to do so. My house got rented and seems like everything has gone back on track. Except that broken little heart that need the gentleness of time to heal. at the same time feel thankful. Thank you for making me a better person and stronger me,

Australia 1st

FINALLY i have reach Australia, and finish my studies, after 20 years of education finally i am free from schooling life and gonna join the society university now. 20 years seems fast as i look back in time and now i have grown up to find for what i want and with burden in my shoulder, gotta tell myself i am not young anymore. i guess it is time to be a bit more matured. haiz....

anyway, i guess i can share my 1st day in Australia, i had a wound on my right hand finger during my flight and was frighten by my friend that Air Asia flight is very terrible and it end up quite enjoying. arrival at Melbourne airport 12.30 am 20/4/2010. the first thing i do is went around and look for something to eat. eventually all the food here is super expensive if i am going to convert it back to ringgit so i just brought a chocolate croissant for my dinner. i am experiencing one of a kind experience now where i had to sleep like those immigrant in the airoport. sleeping on the floor. woohoo... 6.30 depraturing to Sydney, hopes that i can get a good night sleep after this.

last day of work

at last, today is my last day working in OLD TOWN lcct, got to say finally i off from the hell. it was damn busy for the pass few weeks, and super tiring. what i gain from working there is i know a lot of new friends, and of course some bad friend (Malay). I had became more racist working there, finally i realize why a lot of adults hate the Malay, they are just too lazy, unmotivated, slow and a lot more that i couldn't express through words... last but not least, of course i gain $$$ from it.. but all is going to thrown to my air ticket to Australia... haiz...

last word for 13th INTIMA

Look back that i was just installed one year ago, time passes fast, its just like a flip of eye. installed on end of july (hehe, forget the exact date). At first i thought i wont miss that place anymore.. nothing but horror.. intended to quit it half way..but in the end we still manage to finish the term. I thought being INTIMA is easy, but eventually its not. em.. dunno how to explain further for this.. HAHA... i still gonna miss that office. the office i use to hang out everytime i am free.. this is the few question people would ask me..
1) what i gain in INTIMA?
em.. friendship, at first i thought i might not have these freindship thing in INTIMA as most of them are leaders ( this is what the managment told us) but it end up our bond is not bad after all.. maybe we use to quarrel a lot and make the meeting longer so that our relationship were bond stronger.
2) Did i meet my objective?
haha.. NO.. i thought i wanted to make INTIMA to be accepted by INTI students, but it seems that more misunderstand that i thought.. yeah... but my objective changes just a few months ago and i had achieve it. this objective a bit evil so i dont want to tell in public.. hahaha..
3) the most unforgetable moment?
sacrifices a lot for this term of INTIMA and change a lot. therefore unforgetable moment is many.. i think the first one might be the dance i have to show in instalation night, OMG that was embarrassing first time wearing singlet to public somemore so many people... 2nd, my hair-do for INTIBALL.. that was more embaraasing.. haiz.. never wants to mention and see that face again.. scary.
3) so any last word for 13th INTIMA
I miss the office and i wish you all the 'best' to 14th intima...

a night in MOS

it was my roommate's 19th brithday yesterday, she was a such a 'guai guai lui' haha... and here comes my devil and teach her how's a cumpus life should be. HEHE.. so i propose her to go sunway and meet up her boyfriend.. by the time reaches then i bring them to MOS. That was my first time there too. it was great that thursday night is ladies night.. entrance is FREE. wao, that was great, and free drink for ladies, although the drink was lausy. I didnt waste a single drop. never and ever go to MOS before 11 because the dance floor still empty and nothing happening there. when it reaches 11.30, the feeling starts to come and evryone is dancing i meet up some of my friends there and dance together. maybe it's my roommate 1st time and also she is too young to play with a bunch of untie.. HAHA.. (not including me).. so she was quite shy there..when it reaches mid nihgt my cinderella had to go back. so thats the night in MOS. my mission to become a devil accomplish. Hope she wouldnt fall for clubbing next time. If not i think that would be my fault.

someone to be remember

It was weekend, i went back to ipoh with 1 purpose, to give a respect to my grandpa. it has been a year he had left us, i really really miss him a lot, sometime, i would accidently spell out his name and suddenly forget he is not beside me anymore. what a shamed that i am not always there for him, but at least i had done what i suppose to do as a granddaughter.

Belive it or not, i sometime will feel that he was here with me, scary mah? haha, but i would feel it actually have no harm to me and just wanna keep an eye on me so that i wont go wrong. Grandpa, how much i hope you can just c me graduate, just feel like keeping a space for u when i am gonna take that photo. i wonder how would it looks like.

Crazy Adventure

the root started where i forgot to get my assignment back from ipoh last weekend. coincidencely my mom would be going to Genting on monday, something crazy came into my mind 'hm.. why not i go Genting and get my assignment from my mom".. and there i go with one of my crazy companion (pei yin). HEHE.. so here we go.. next stop Genting. starting from 3 to 7 o'clock only we manage to get there. On our journey, we met this foreign traveler where he was heading to Penang eventualy, in order to be a friendly Malaysian so we talk alot about the place we were heading to. So he decided to joined us to Genting instead follow his plan... WO.. we are quite a good tour guide.. HEHE.. After settling him down in first world so ran Highland hotel and meet up my mom.. my mom cook a good meal for us and we went walk around in Genting and meet up with my friend (anny), imagine, we had durian outside the open car park while it was raining.. the feeling is undescripable.HEHE..

then we went starbucks coffee to study, but eventually i slept and pei yin was studying. when it came back to chit chating and photo taking session.. I AM BACK

around 3a.m i slept like i was dead on my bed. i was woke up by my mom and aunty's conversation and we had a breakfast and here we go again.. BYE BYE GENTING.. around 8.30 and we reach INTI again sharp on 12 then go fro class.. now my mind is kind of blur and sleepy, still have to be awake for my test tmr.. OMG, havent touch a single page.. Haiz.. other exciting adventure that i didnt mention due my laziness now.. HEHE

my new friend from germany, ingmar... crazy crazy..

the view outside our room.. nice right?

startbuck hot chocolate and notes....

everyone is leaving

Again i went to KLIA this evening to send 1 of my friend to Australia. Now once again my friend leave, it seems that so many people had left. haiz. feel kind of heavy hearted though, somehow we once are best friend. i was wondering, will i still see her in the future? will she call me out? ot will i be available by that time? i think this may be the last time i can see her though.. HEHE... some how i was wondering, When can i leave this damn place too.. sien de leh.. why i keep sending people off, when do i get that chance to go KLIA with a bag full of stuff and getting ready to leave.. Maybe i am not those kind of like family people and will stick with them.. i like being alone going to somewhere where no one knows who am i.. and have my new life there.. it maybe harsh living outside alone, but i really hope to try on.. maybe i will have more fun than staying back here..

GOOD BYE TAN KAH YEE

Handball

'playing handball is the bestest activity to do in world', that 1 is a fallacy, but for me this is not. HEHE.. when i catch that little fellow with my hand, reminded me how much fun and happy days i use to have. back there where no assignment, test, event, complicated friend... everything seems so simple and seems so nice that time... it reminds me that i will sacrifice everything just to go for handball practice and the days where i skip classes just for handball... and now handball is my past, not current, not future. but it will always be in my memory in the past, current and also future. i just LOVE handball so so so so much.. I lOVE U....

my handball gang

wild days

28/12/2008
haiz... turn to 21st now. i was thinking how am i suppose to celebrate my birthday, cant beleive that my handball junior and friends throw me a party in K-box.. i relly had a lot of fun that day.. lost my voice again after that...

at night i end up drinking with my cousins and friends. waalao.. that day is cant imaginable, i got drunk again.. as usual i talk a lot of nonsense, the most crazy thing is when i got off my car, i fell onto the floor, then i use my leg o close the car's door. crazy right... haiz.. will never get drunk again next time.. HEHE..

1/1/2008
what a day, after taking the sucks KTM back from ipoh to KL, my cousin suggested to go GENTING, then here i go again.. GENTING.. this time i did not went to theme park like i use to go.. this time i went to CASINO.. thank good... i lost RM 200 le.. haiz... i am so poor now lo... have to save money to cover up my lost now.. haiz..

Busy Days

it's has been awhile i did not update my blog. Haiz.. lately DAMN busy lo.. keep following up my company's report and alot lot staff had to settle cause i am going to finsih my internship lo.. Yeah.. actually i got a bit of heavy hearted to leave this company lo.. HAHA.. hard to find a company can let me go work late and get back early as long as u made a good lie... WAO.. Shuang... HAHA.. i am quite anticipate my life back in INTI... but i think i will hate my life again in INTI.. cause i found that when people in 1 situation they will never satisfy and tend to have more... HAIZ.. stupid human behaviour.. cant do anything to change.. HAHA.. Adapt to it..HAHA

ohya, you know what i learn when i am working? it is the more you know your supervisor tend to ask you to do more.. HAHA... so friends. sometime is not a bad idea to pretend to be stupid lo..stupid goes lazy.. lazy goes happy. YEAH... do anything to be happy.. YEah..

suprise i'm still awake

Wao, can you imagine, i am still awake now. HAHA.. yeah.. last night sleep at 12 a.m then suddenly wake up at 2.30a.m, cant sleep back.. hehe, although tried to sleep back for 3 hours, after that i give up and walk arond. hehe. Now it is 2.42p.m, wo, i am still awake, not tiring but blur blur now. hehe, imagine how i work. there's sometime i slept suddenly when i am dealing with all those statement of account. Couldnt stand looking at so so many number at a time. rather nothing to do and receive salary.. hm... IMPOSIBLE lo.. hehe.. no free meal in this world except money from your parent pocket, hoho... i am imagining what would it be when i come out to work. The Company hired me sure die, hm.. thinking having my own shop, HEHE, then i no need to go for work so frequent.... can be lazy... HEHE.. or go for another option.... hmmmm..... thinking.... a lot of ways to get lazy... good... let me think about it.. hmmmm...

Yesterday after work

After6p.m., yeah.. at last i can go for a break now. I had dated emily, pei yin, dorleen and Marilyn to play around in KL. When i got into the car, no one had an idea going where to have dinner so i decided to go to have buffet steamboat. So we went there. OMG, there is a lot of people luckily it juz took us 10 minutes wait for our que, our time passes fast with Dorleen and Marilyn story about leo, haha.

When we got in, what amaze is that, the steamboat have 3 storey, 3 storey le.. a lot lot lot of people enjoying thier meal there. What i actually wanna to share today is HOW CRAZY PEOPLE WOULD BE OVER THE HONEY CHICKEN. Firstly, emily said the ckicken here is tasty, everyone would go grap 1 if u got there. we are very lucky that we got a clip to grap the chicken. Emily told me how bombastic that people would start war for the chicken, i tought she is just boasting, but eventually, she was correct, before the chicken arrive, many people already sorounding the table where the HONEY CHICKEN would be located, when the cover start to open........... wao........ u cant imagine wat happen. i tried and tried and tried to get 1 honey chicken, but it is hard, people from all around using hand, clip, OMG PLATE somemore. GOU GOU LI. In the end, after 8 second war for the HONEY CHICKEN comes to an end, i manage to get 5. imagine, 50 over chicken, gone in just 8 second. imagine how mad was that situation, everyone grab, tear to fight for it. What so speacial about it? you will know when you aat it. but for me i rather go back to Ipoh and buy my own honey chicken rather than fight like crazy for the chicken, but somehow people like it better after the fight. haha... so 5 of us enjoy the HONEY CHICKEN that we had fight for it.

We ate a lot in that staemboat house. we had our enjoyable time there, eating and eating and eating. Got fat and very high Calories. Everything was nice but the only thing is thier service is not that good, but i had a great time.. especially the fighting chicken part. WALAO.. you would never know what's the feeling before you went into it.

our steamboat..... a lot right?

After dinner it is already 11.30p.m, so we went for a movie. DEAD ON THE FLIGHT(if i'm not mistaken).. hehe.. the movie was.. erm... very iritating.. cz we just had our dinner and we watch this kind of movie, feel like vomit.. so we finish our day after a great laugh over the movie.. ohya, i have to tell is that, Marilyn Scream very load when the zombie came out.. haha.. I had a great night yesterday..

The side effect is... i feel like sleeping now.. haiz... tiring... don play play in working weekdays.. if not you would end up like me... aarrrhhh... where is my bed....

i see a green frog... can you see it?
a bunch of act cute human taking picture in the toilet

Eat paper monster

This is the 1st time i am dealing with this monster. It eats paper, and it is quite dangerous, it will eat your hand. My supervisor ask me to crash the whole box of paper with the paper crashing machine, it seems so easy to funcion it, but somehow it's hard, need to use a lot of time to sayang it. If u let it eat too much paper, it will lost function then you have to wait a long long time again to wait for it to refunction. If you let it eat 1 paper at a time, i dunno when could i finish my work. haiz... here i go again, face to face with that stupid old monster again. hope it does not finger... If you see me without my finger, do not be suprise.. i got defeated by that monster.

The most lousy interview + presentation

went back to INTI to attend the interview going to sweden, haiz, unexpectedly, my presentation was sucks.. the answer i gave is not convincing, my presentation is out of topic. OMG.. my chances going Sweden are gone.

BUT, can i still go, if i got the chance? haiz.. the answer is no, my dad said it's such a waste of time and money so in the end, i go for the interview just for fun. really hope i can get the approval, to show that i have the criteria to go.. haha.. BUT now.. haiz.. ALL GONE..

what a day

On friday i plan go go back to inti, the journey to inti is frightening and yet challenging. After my bath i wanna took a taxi to KTM station but that time i couldn't find a tax so i had to walk 20 minutes to the KTM station, along the way i say many foreign worker passing by, i was walking alone, feel unsafe and uncomfortable. lucky that i manage to reach the KTM station safe, when i want to buy the ticket, OMG, it's 7.20p.m, they malays dinner time. so i had to line up all the way for the ticket machine. Pity i found out that i got no change so i headed to the nearest shop to buy a drink and get the change. After awhile an aunty come toward me talk to me as a respect i reply her after that she ask me to help her to buy a ticket for her, so i pity her and help her to buy it, the worst is that people around me look at me like wanna to kill me. haiz... it is the longest que i ever line up for. The aunty told me that her train will be here soon so she ask me to buy her 1st, so i just follow. after one hard time queing and buying my ticket i finaly got my ticket but my train ha left just infront of my eye. so i got to wai wait wait and wait for another 1. When i reach Nilai, i quickly went up to a bus, the bus driver is not here, yeah i am so happy, then i sorok myself in a place then the bus driver came back and didint notice me. yeah, i got free trip to inti. along the way the bus stop in cempaka pasar malam, i saw many Inti student did not go up to the bus, then i feel weird, i ask myself why? why? why?i thought they feel that the bus is just too crowded so they refuse to go in. but i found that that is not the reason, when the people sitting beside ask for time then i ask him where were u heading to? he said KLIA. KLIA.. OMG.. i wanna go INTI. so i quickly ran down from the bus no matter what. OMG, nightmare, i had gone down somewhere where in cempaka that is very dark and i m standing all alone. i wanna get a taxi but i counld't c 1, at last i saw a taxi pass by to go to 1 of the phamacy shop so i savagely ran to the taxi to wait for the taxi driver, i saw walking along with 2 negerian (customer) so i approache him. he promise me that he can go inti, i happily got in, when i wanna to feel safe in the taxi, the taxi driver said unpolitely ask me to pay RM5, RM5? OMG, so expensive, from cempaka to inti with 2 more negerian to the same place as i m. I force to pay him, i don wanna be dump in this place. he stop us at the ATM, when i c puah tin chew, i feel really relief.. nothing can explain the feeling when i reach inti that time. feel safe, comfortable and secure. I miss INTI.

a boring day in my intern life

what a day, sitting inside the office, on a comfortable hair and receiving salary but doing nothing. i played face book, friendster, and MSN go and kacao everyone around me. but in the end i end up sitting here again doing nothng. wait wait wait and wait hoping to get something to do. everyone around me seems busy, but i m sitting here doing nothing, what a watse of time. people said nternship you will learn a lot, but to me i guess what i learn is i really miss inti a lot. i wanna go back and study again. i don like working. i rather going back to mylife in inti although it is busy, but at least something to do not like now. sien sien sien. wanna go to the window and jump down already.

leo memory in port dickson

saturday, i was the 1st one in the bus, what a dissapointment that the rest of them havent reach. i became so seriuos that i nearly scare them off. haha.. this is what i want to do. scare them off, i thought i want to be seriuos but in the end i end up play untill crazy, but sometime sot sot de.. i went serious again. haha. really had a lot of fun torturing them and trying my best to make them crazy. this is the 1st time i act as a trainer, discover that being a trainer is quite nice. maybe my next career can be a trainer. the feeling of getting people along and having fun while being serious is quite nice. realy appreciate the 1st time thinking ideas toturing people while me my self had a lot of fun. thanks leo club giving the last memory for me. i love you all. andof course i never forget my self as intima.. i love intima also.

Bye bye jenna

my friend, jenna is going to leave to UK soon.. hoho.. i thik i will her a lot.. miss her tummy tummy, miss her laughter, miss her loud voice, miss her being such a friend to me when i feel bored. i will miss her for letting me fooling her around. i will be going to KLIA later to say good bye fortthe last time. i am wondering will we have any chances to meet again. since you willl be leaving, when you got back may be i will not be in inti anymore. we would be sparated since we had our own future to go. hey, jenna, if you read this, don forget me as your friend ya? call me out yam cha when you are free.. maybe we can try yam cha online.. haha..

my 1st day blogging

i read the first blog from jenna's blog, i found that blogging it is very convinience for us, instead writting it in a diary, why not save some paper and write it on this blog.

hm.. my 1st blog here, what should i write?... hm......

i know, let's write about what i am doing now.

i am now doing my internship in a company call oscar wealth advisory sdn. bhd., it is dealing with all kinds of financial services. i don wanna help them to publicize so much so i dont think i wanna to introduce them.. haha.. i am now based on grant and busines loan department means i like the along.. calling people come borow money and suck all their money and gain interest.. haha...but i still havent reach that stage actualy.. hehe.. just dealling with the admin staff here not much.. i still can play my favourite game tomato bounce.. and i just achieve anither high score to my is 1305 now.. wow.. shuang.. that's all i wanna write about.. to be continue