Depression

Hi Blog blog block,

Its been awhile since my last posting. growing up things have become complicated in times. Flashing and scrolling back all the memories which i used to have as such wonderful. Its always great to look back. But we humans cannot look back, we will have to seek for better future to be better us in time and better life.

Life has been rough to me lately. Caught by a good friend leaving, found that my worklife got cheated by soemone i trusted, house instalment and car instalement is in the loop, very headache about all the renovation of my first house, friends have not been understanding, family issue and got life has never been this worst before and i couldnt hold it till i met an accident. I was left nothing that point of life, feels like friends, family, financial all BOOM in one shot. Final crack down. Things was hard.

It was lucky a friend once told me that time can settle all worries. Everything will gonna be okay. i moved on to life on with my life. I applied to Australia working holiday visa to tune my lfie back to whom i really was, in hoping to look for the real me. Someone who used to dream and used to have that passion. I was a hard decsion as i really do love ipoh so much. I have to leave to tune my life back to change my mindset about life. My car was fixed. friendship is rebuilt. Things that  i should have let go, i have let it go. Its time for the song frozen (Let it gooooo, let it gooooo, dont hold you back anymore) it really took me alot of courage to do so. My house got rented and seems like everything has gone back on track. Except that broken little heart that need the gentleness of time to heal. at the same time feel thankful. Thank you for making me a better person and stronger me,

Australia 1st

FINALLY i have reach Australia, and finish my studies, after 20 years of education finally i am free from schooling life and gonna join the society university now. 20 years seems fast as i look back in time and now i have grown up to find for what i want and with burden in my shoulder, gotta tell myself i am not young anymore. i guess it is time to be a bit more matured. haiz....

anyway, i guess i can share my 1st day in Australia, i had a wound on my right hand finger during my flight and was frighten by my friend that Air Asia flight is very terrible and it end up quite enjoying. arrival at Melbourne airport 12.30 am 20/4/2010. the first thing i do is went around and look for something to eat. eventually all the food here is super expensive if i am going to convert it back to ringgit so i just brought a chocolate croissant for my dinner. i am experiencing one of a kind experience now where i had to sleep like those immigrant in the airoport. sleeping on the floor. woohoo... 6.30 depraturing to Sydney, hopes that i can get a good night sleep after this.

last day of work

at last, today is my last day working in OLD TOWN lcct, got to say finally i off from the hell. it was damn busy for the pass few weeks, and super tiring. what i gain from working there is i know a lot of new friends, and of course some bad friend (Malay). I had became more racist working there, finally i realize why a lot of adults hate the Malay, they are just too lazy, unmotivated, slow and a lot more that i couldn't express through words... last but not least, of course i gain $$$ from it.. but all is going to thrown to my air ticket to Australia... haiz...

last word for 13th INTIMA

Look back that i was just installed one year ago, time passes fast, its just like a flip of eye. installed on end of july (hehe, forget the exact date). At first i thought i wont miss that place anymore.. nothing but horror.. intended to quit it half way..but in the end we still manage to finish the term. I thought being INTIMA is easy, but eventually its not. em.. dunno how to explain further for this.. HAHA... i still gonna miss that office. the office i use to hang out everytime i am free.. this is the few question people would ask me..
1) what i gain in INTIMA?
em.. friendship, at first i thought i might not have these freindship thing in INTIMA as most of them are leaders ( this is what the managment told us) but it end up our bond is not bad after all.. maybe we use to quarrel a lot and make the meeting longer so that our relationship were bond stronger.
2) Did i meet my objective?
haha.. NO.. i thought i wanted to make INTIMA to be accepted by INTI students, but it seems that more misunderstand that i thought.. yeah... but my objective changes just a few months ago and i had achieve it. this objective a bit evil so i dont want to tell in public.. hahaha..
3) the most unforgetable moment?
sacrifices a lot for this term of INTIMA and change a lot. therefore unforgetable moment is many.. i think the first one might be the dance i have to show in instalation night, OMG that was embarrassing first time wearing singlet to public somemore so many people... 2nd, my hair-do for INTIBALL.. that was more embaraasing.. haiz.. never wants to mention and see that face again.. scary.
3) so any last word for 13th INTIMA
I miss the office and i wish you all the 'best' to 14th intima...

a night in MOS

it was my roommate's 19th brithday yesterday, she was a such a 'guai guai lui' haha... and here comes my devil and teach her how's a cumpus life should be. HEHE.. so i propose her to go sunway and meet up her boyfriend.. by the time reaches then i bring them to MOS. That was my first time there too. it was great that thursday night is ladies night.. entrance is FREE. wao, that was great, and free drink for ladies, although the drink was lausy. I didnt waste a single drop. never and ever go to MOS before 11 because the dance floor still empty and nothing happening there. when it reaches 11.30, the feeling starts to come and evryone is dancing i meet up some of my friends there and dance together. maybe it's my roommate 1st time and also she is too young to play with a bunch of untie.. HAHA.. (not including me).. so she was quite shy there..when it reaches mid nihgt my cinderella had to go back. so thats the night in MOS. my mission to become a devil accomplish. Hope she wouldnt fall for clubbing next time. If not i think that would be my fault.

someone to be remember

It was weekend, i went back to ipoh with 1 purpose, to give a respect to my grandpa. it has been a year he had left us, i really really miss him a lot, sometime, i would accidently spell out his name and suddenly forget he is not beside me anymore. what a shamed that i am not always there for him, but at least i had done what i suppose to do as a granddaughter.

Belive it or not, i sometime will feel that he was here with me, scary mah? haha, but i would feel it actually have no harm to me and just wanna keep an eye on me so that i wont go wrong. Grandpa, how much i hope you can just c me graduate, just feel like keeping a space for u when i am gonna take that photo. i wonder how would it looks like.

Crazy Adventure

the root started where i forgot to get my assignment back from ipoh last weekend. coincidencely my mom would be going to Genting on monday, something crazy came into my mind 'hm.. why not i go Genting and get my assignment from my mom".. and there i go with one of my crazy companion (pei yin). HEHE.. so here we go.. next stop Genting. starting from 3 to 7 o'clock only we manage to get there. On our journey, we met this foreign traveler where he was heading to Penang eventualy, in order to be a friendly Malaysian so we talk alot about the place we were heading to. So he decided to joined us to Genting instead follow his plan... WO.. we are quite a good tour guide.. HEHE.. After settling him down in first world so ran Highland hotel and meet up my mom.. my mom cook a good meal for us and we went walk around in Genting and meet up with my friend (anny), imagine, we had durian outside the open car park while it was raining.. the feeling is undescripable.HEHE..

then we went starbucks coffee to study, but eventually i slept and pei yin was studying. when it came back to chit chating and photo taking session.. I AM BACK

around 3a.m i slept like i was dead on my bed. i was woke up by my mom and aunty's conversation and we had a breakfast and here we go again.. BYE BYE GENTING.. around 8.30 and we reach INTI again sharp on 12 then go fro class.. now my mind is kind of blur and sleepy, still have to be awake for my test tmr.. OMG, havent touch a single page.. Haiz.. other exciting adventure that i didnt mention due my laziness now.. HEHE

my new friend from germany, ingmar... crazy crazy..

the view outside our room.. nice right?

startbuck hot chocolate and notes....